permata yang hilang

lately nie aku down sgt.. aku xtaw npe.. msti ade bnde.. yes,mlm nie bru aku sdr yg aku khlgn something yg slama nie aku sggp bt ape sje aslkan aku xhlg die.. that is FRIEND.. org yg aku glrkn KAWAN tu adlh org yg amat brmkna dlm hdp aku.. tahun nie bnyk ajar aku erti ketabahan.. aku sggp hilang balak ke ape ke asalkan aku xhlg family n kawan aku.. aku sggp wat ape sje just nk tgk kwn aku hppy.. tp npe thn nie aku x rse kenikmatan persahabatan?? salah aku ke?? ntahla.. aku rse sedih sgt.. tp aku nk bgtaw sape?? sape je yg nk dgr?? sape je nk thu?? yes, aku ingat lg org prnh ckp.. seramai mne pun kwn kite ketawa kite tp kwn mngs kite x tentu lg ade.. aku fhm n aku harus akur.. tp aku still lg xsggp putus prshbtn..bg aku prshbtn tu suci sgt..td pun aku bru je disedari dgn hnya 1 perbualan.. xpela..

buatmu rakan2ku,
aku memohon maaf andai diri ini menyakiti mu
tanpa niatku
aku hanya memohon sedikit ruang di hati mu
agar diri ini rasa dihargai
aku hanya ingin sedikit kasih sayang dari mu
agar diri ini kuat mengharungi ujian-Nya
aku hanya ingin memohon sekuntum doa dari mu
agar diri ini memperoleh keberkatan Nya
apabila bertemuNya nanti..

i'm home

i'm home(xde prsaan)..hahaha..yela,tiap2 hri aku blk an??so same je la prsaan aku.. btw, aku nk citer la sikit about KEM SMART & EASY.. its 3days and 2 nights.. so mcm okla...i enjoyed the moment but there's no memorable thing yg aku akn ingat smpai biler2...excpt 4 da fasi yg giler2,da teacher yg blue n ape yg die ajar..hahaha..new friends okla.. tp i can't really feel the ikatan between us la.. coz every where we go, we like agak xbrcmpr la.. hahaha.. so mcm biase je la.. but aku xnafikan yg ade la rpt n got many new frends.. but i'm not 1 of them.. hahaa.. nvm la.. mybe ALLAH suh aku concentrate 2 the intipati yg supposed aku gune for my future! that is SPM!! gotta go! bye


*am i nerd???
*jwpn nyer kt next post! ;p
*ape pndgn korg???

down to earth

actually the title is not related to what am i going to tell.. senang citer cmnie la.. my self confidence is dropping like hell!! i dont know why.. aku stress!!! too many consequences yg akn hppen when my self confidence drop.. i'll not be able to talk to some1 that i dont know.. my mind will go NEGATIVELY!!. bnykla.. i'm to tired to list all of them.. dulu aku menghidapi sindrom nie.. mse aku form 1 la n form 2 skjp.. but then, aku da ok la.. like cam confident gak la in every step i've take.. but now.. i juz dont get it.. i felt that i'm da ugliest,the stupidest, the bad bad la.. argggghhh!!!!

for god sake,HELP ME!!!


*nway, td best gak la cume ade part yg xbest..
* wafa(if u read this) ; TQ!! i like da background! love u!

3 kilo habuk!!

Ya Allah bnyknyer habuk kt blog aku! lame xupdate an?? hehehe..mls sbnrnyer..jap2.. aku nk cite sal ape ek??owh,ok..cite sal taun nie yg x berapa nk best nie kan.. xbest sbb ape??meh ak listkan..kirenye summary for 3 month i'm in form 5.. check it out ;

-stress nk SPM!!
-aku jauh dri org yg aku prnh syg(still syg tp...)
-aku nk jd kejam kt org yg ignore aku (well u know who)
-aku thu aku ade org yg always support aku scra tak lgsg..TQ ;)
-now i know the true colours of some people..
-aku berAZAM untuk score in my SPM ;p
-my family's happpiness and myself is my PRIRORITY!!(betul ke ejaan) hahaha

tu jela kot yg aku blaja stkt nie.. nway aku akan pegang one thing nie.. TRUE FRIENDS IS PERMANENT. LOVE COME AND GO. TRUE FRIENDS REMAIN SILENTLY IN OUR HEART. TRUE FRIENDS IS FAR AWAY MORE IMPORTANT THAN LOVE.

gotta go!